I’ve hit a mental wall where I need some silence. In my head. In my space.
I want to be able to hear myself think just for a second! There’s so much chaos and despite my best efforts, things never go the way you plan. Not all the time atleast.
I want to read in silence.
I want to eat in silence.
I want to think in silence.
I want to go to the toilet in silence.
But what I really want, is none of the above.
However tierd I get, or frustrated or angry at not having any time to myself, I realise this is what I’ve wanted my whole life. Surrounded by family who love me!
I love the sound of the tiny voice that wakes me up and demands alertness the moment I open my eyes and before my brain can comprehend any of it.
I love the clatter of plates and cuttlery when I’m setting the table up so everyone can enjoy a nice meal together.
I love reading over the sound of the blaring music in the living room and a screaming toddler telling me she needs mummy to take her to the toilet for the millionth time.
I love having company in the toilet.
So in actual fact, despite the mental wall that I may have hit, the last thing I want is silence.