It was an exhausting day today. Physically and emotionally. They both go hand in hand with me these days anyway. I emotionally break down on the tiniest of things. Today however, was different. I hadn’t had any sleep from the night before and baby just wouldn’t stop crying. She sometimes needs to be rocked to sleep. She’s most comfortable when held (total opposite to what Jana was like) also needs to be constantly spoken to. If ignored for more then a certain period of time, she will wail at the top of her lungs and it’s very difficult to calm her down after that.
I had offered milk, been rocking her to try and get her to doze off and even asked Jana to speak to her (which is a sure fire way to get her to stop crying and start smiling!) but nothing was working. I had no choice but to carry on. Stopping was not an option – I’d already put in so much effort! There was no magical moment where I had an epiphany and all was well. It was hard work and I had no choice but to soldier through. By seven in the evening she was fast asleep in her cot and I was an exhausted mama. I, too, slept. Happy ending.